Monday, October 6, 2008
My First Day !!!
Today I started all over again. My first day of the 'rest of my life'. I didn't really want to start over, not at this stage of the game. I've been doing this for 21 years, why would I start over? Whatever fork in the road I took to lead me to this 'new' adventure, was the right choice. I've been known not to make the right choices over the years,but this my friends, seems to be the perfect choice.
I was burnt out, a dinosaur, a crusty old "brasshead". I was spent, tired of fighting all the BS, it was putting a strain on many things in my life, friendships, relationships...my whole attitude was different. I was turning into the cop I never wanted to become and I decided that the road I was headed down was just a dead end.
Today is the first day to start over for me, a second chance to NOT become the cop I was becoming...to not have a bad attitude, the chance to have the same feeling I did 21 years ago the very first time I sat behind the wheel of a brand new 1988 Ford Crown Victoria (man that thing was a boat) with red and blue light on top...and today was just like it was 21 years ago. All the same feelings came back, the smile, the pride, the excitement, the honor...it all came back in a flood of emotions that was very hard to control.
For the first time in over six-years, I had "my" Chief of Police tell me he was "proud to have me on board". I had fellow officers come up to me and smile and say "welcome" , "glad to have you here" , "look forward to working with you". As I took a simple "Oath of Office" tears welled up in me as I swore to uphold the laws and rules of my County, my State, and my Community. The pride came back and it was all so hard to contain.
As the day progressed and met more and more co-workers and supervisors who said the same things, all day long, over and over again and I felt a connection to the department and community immediately and I can't wait until tomorrow. I'm upset that I am going to have two days off a week, I truly feel like a rookie" again and I was so worried I would not.
I'm not sure why God continues to bless me, but I'm not going to complain...I can truly say that this is one of the very best times of my life. I've got the best wife a man could ask for, three wonderful children, who I love more that I can ever express, a grandson who is healthy and a joy, a mother who cares for me and friends that have stood by me through this difficult process.
I get to say something now that I have not been able to say in a very very long time...I love my job, I know that this is going to be fantastic. I'm looking so forward to more and more and returning to the person I once was, the husband, son, friend and father that I once was.
I'm blessed.
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4 comments:
Wow...and I ALREADY thought you were fantastic! I guess I'll be pleasently surprised to know you when you're enjoying life in it's fullest. I love my job, too. I understand how great that feeling is.
I'm so proud of you daddo! Hope your enjoying ur new job! Love ya
"C"
aww- That made me feel a little emotional. I'm glad you're so happy!
More hump day thoughts!!!
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